Nicely Settled

One day after the big event, I joined a small party called "Girls' night". Today is the "Boys' day" in Japan though... it was really fun.

The friend DC invited me tonight was in my PhD confirmation seminar. We are good friends and working together for two courses under my supervisor RD. The information she got from RD before the seminar was, "The examinar previously rejected some students. He was known as one of hard markers". I did not know that at all! I was told from RD as he is very supportive. I really appreciated that no one told me the truth before the seminar.

The friend DC got a lot of information for me from my supervisor RD. According to her, the examinar really likes straight-forward expressions. I imagined how patiently he had to listened to me. In fact, all of my supervisors were a little nervous. I wondered why but now I know why they were. I also know why they did not tell me the truth. It was all about strategy to win that game. We won.

My other friends also told me, "I never imagined such tough comments". I did not think like that at all. I rather thought he was very kind and patient. "Yeah, it was not nasty at all, but really critical". That was what I wanted. I was so happy with obtaining his feedback. "Kay, you were really brave. You answered and explained well". Really? What I did? Hum... I should listen to the tape recorded but I do not want to do it for a while!

I must be in the pretty lucky environment. Supervisors know me very well. We are working as a team. They understand my introverted personality, awful public speech skill and horrible writing. They carefully choose words to give me. They push me into conferences to improve my speech skill. They are always challenging. When I have many tears (especially with methodology), they quietly listen to me then turn into loud discussions for me.

Seven years ago, when I started my bachelor program, many lecturers and tutors told me, "I do not know what you are talking about". I failed some courses. I am now study for a PhD. Indeed, I am getting confident.